So this is what my life has become… meet the kids. My pet obsessed tubes have been tied.
But seriously, call me crazy but these two make my life sunshine.
Seriously.
I am cleaning the entirety of my room tomorrow, next Friday I am going to organize it. THEN you all will be allowed to see it.
BAH!
WHAT I CAN DO, WHAT I’M GONNA DO BECAUSE I CAN DO IT!
I am going to get a 1/3rd tattoo sleeve. I don’t care what anyone says. My kids will hate it, I may hate it with age but I don’t care I am going to do it! I can be a pet trainer all my life because I love dogs and I love my job, I don’t care if I should go to school to be a doctor. I am going to have a house full of animals, I don’t care if they smell they are cute! I am going to stay with a boy who may have broken my heart I don’t care because the next one will do it too and the next one. I DON’T CARE! I am going to gauge my ears and poke holes in my body because I feel like it! I am going to eat cake for breakfast and not clean my room because I can. I can stay a kid forever because it makes me happy! I can but lipstick every week because I like fucking lipstick! I can walk around with no pants on because I hate pants! I can hate you because I can. I can ignore you because I hate you because I can and I don’t even have a reason BECAUSE I DON’T NEED ONE!
I can skip to my location and I can sing in the car. I never even have to learn how to drive! BECAUSE I CAN!
I can cut all the coupons I want!
I can watch Star Wars AND Breakfast at Tiffany’s all day long!
I CAN HEAD BANG TO QUEEN BECAUSE I FEEEEEELLLL LIKE IT!
I don’t have to be in shape because I don’t wanna be!
I don’t have to like people or things or be trendy!
BECAUSE I AM A NERD, I AM A SPAZZ!
I DON’T EVER WANT TO DO COCAINE!
OR ACID.
OR BE EFFFEEEDDDD IN THE HEAD.
I DON’T WANNA SAY FUCK SO I DON’T HAVE TOO!
It’s as simple as this….
You took and I gave. Though I should have restrained from letting you be, giving you freedom to whatever. You’re a trouble maker, a snake. You lie and you take. You’ve convinced the world you’re a poor desperate soul, and I was convinced too. You’re loved and you’re wanted but you’re cruel. You’re selfish, you used me when you needed something and when FINALLY I rose above and took hold of my life you did what you could to bring me down. You lied, you manipulated, you tore me down… made me feel worthless. You’re no better then anyone I’ve hated before but sadly I’m not allowed to hate you. It’s not right. I never told your secrets, but you told all of mine. I got myself in trouble just so you could survive! You’re a spot on angel but a devil in disguise. You can get what you want but not this time. You’re envious, you’re green. I can’t tell the difference between you or the ground I walk on. You’re a coward and you hate. Every time you talk about peace I roll my eyes, you start the war. I know now I am stronger than you, I am a better person than you and I am glad to see everyone has leaned that too. I hope one day I can take the knife you stabbed in my back and set it aside because I try so hard not to do the same. It goes to show that karma will entail. I hope it doesn’t hit you as hard as you deserve. Bitch.
